"Throw my dollars up high/And they land on the stage you dance on/We got company coming over/Would it kill you to put some pants on?" -Dreams Money Can Buy
I forget that I get my biggest, greatest ideas from things tenuously related, or mostly unrelated to what I'm doing at the moment.
I've been feeling really down and out about not going to school; all my life I've been told that school would be what differentiates me from all the other folks in the world. It would pretty much promise me a job. It would make or break my life. So I understand why the realization that I'm being held back another semester (or two) would upset me to the point of assaulting a piece of paper with angry words and disappointed tears.
So while laying around feeling sorry for myself and my wrecked life plan I came up with another one, and another one and another one. I thought of being a stripper; I figure that's recession proof right? And I could be one of those girls who actually is just stripping to pay for school. While I was thinking these thoughts I was listening to Drake and that line above came up.
In a perfect kismet moment I decided definitively what I want to do with my life (that does not involve taking my clothes off for money). I want to home-school other people's children. I then want to build up a rapport with the same parents over time so that I can open a small private school that lets me teach the kids what they need to learn with what they have to learn. I'd call it the Dorothy Parker Academy.
I'd been thinking all this time that to be important, to be successful, I'd have to be traditional. I'd have to go to school and graduate with the best grades, I'd have to go to a great college that costs the equivalent of a house in the Hamptons to attend. I forget sometimes that the most successful people, the happiest people, rarely if ever go the traditional route to get where they are.
I've never been a traditional girl; it shocks me that it took me until now to realize that living traditionally wouldn't work for me. Living traditionally doesn't work for a lot of people. I forgot that to live my life, and enjoy it, I'd have to do it my way; not many people will understand it, or appreciate it, but they have to respect the moxie, the chutzpah, the balls it takes to own it.